suzie

sukadear @ 2008-02-15T22:32:00

2008-02-16T03:46:05Z

I haven't written anything in like 29 weeks or so.
I'm terrible at keeping up with this.

My life since 29 weeks ago (the short version)....

*well i moved to syracuse aug 2006 with josh
*we bought our first house in october of that year
*we got engaged in december of 2007

Plus'
(+) I live here in syracuse with the love of my life.
(+) I'm ENGAGED
(+) For the first time in a long time I feel truely happy with my life
(+) I have a car, finally.
(+) I'm making plans to start a family with josh

Minus'
(-) I miss my family all the time
(-) I think a lot of my friendships are beyond repair
(-) I HATE my job.
(-) I'm not in school yet

I think i'm going to try to start updating this on a weekly basis instead of yearly, that would be way more practical.

sukadear @ 2007-07-22T21:07:00

2007-07-23T01:10:38Z

well this has been a long, long time.

i miss my livejournal.

sukadear @ 2006-01-23T20:06:00

2006-01-24T01:09:03Z

i'll update more later. definitely not in the mood tonight.

sukadear @ 2006-01-23T20:03:00

2006-01-24T01:03:14Z

i fucked up real bad.

im sorry. :(

sukadear @ 2005-11-02T08:57:00

2005-11-02T13:58:07Z

i miss you..

sukadear @ 2005-09-27T08:04:00

2005-09-27T12:09:32Z

long weekend.

well im officially living with my sister now.
i hope it all works out.

ps:
i hate my mom.
i never asked for any of this.
im quitting smoking again, i promise.

such a short entry for someone with so much to say.
ill get back to it.

sukadear @ 2005-08-07T16:12:00

2005-08-07T20:12:33Z

well its come to be that time again.

this journal is now FRIENDS ONLY.

not a friend ? comment to be added.

sukadear @ 2005-07-19T02:24:00

2005-07-19T06:33:30Z

well, i have a crush. but shhh dont tell anyone. <3 <3

tonight i'm writing you from a million miles away.

2005-07-16T02:40:55Z

ugh, so lately i have been increasingly bitchy - i need sleep despritely.

so my mom's niceness has officially worn off. i want to die...or move out. fuck.

i need a car.

i think im really sick, when i talk i hear echoes...and i couldnt breathe out of my nose to save my life. this is what i get for sleeping outside. stupid me.

i need to call mcc.

fcuk

2005-07-15T06:41:24Z

so well i guess the plan to update more frequently didnt work out as well as planned, but im making progress.

im on the verge of moving out, but can't because i feel bad. i feel like my mom would actually miss me if i did really move out. i shouldn't, but i can't help it. maybe ill give it a few more weeks & see how things go.

i got my license on monday, this makes me super happy because i dont think i would have handled failing that stupid test twice. that might be

ive gained a few pounds this summer, and im not thrilled about that. it wont be there much longer..if i can help it. i mean i have had my period for almost a month straight. stupid pills.

my next update will be about shan's grad party, but i dont have enough time to do it tonight.

okay now im falling asleep, more later.

[s l e e p - is what i need]

2005-07-08T05:05:32Z

i dont really know what to update on tonight, but i feel as if i should.

i took my stupid test today, and did quite well...on the math part. english, not as well...but im not complaining. the only thing left to do is to go register for classes.. wow.

bowling was fuun. i kicked b-u-t-t in the first game and well i sucked horribly in the second. maybe bowling wasnt the best idea, it was hot...and i dont know how many people actually like bowling. oh well, we all (emily, jess, kyle, jimmy) had a good time.

i havent tried to fix any friendships, like i had originally planned...but i think its for the best. i dont want to fake friendships to make amends before we leave each other, maybe forever. whats meant to be would have been and i know that we are both better off just leaving this "as is". you can hate me, but is it really worth it?

okay, so enough of the seriousness. the dipper was awesome last night. i thought i was gonna hate it, but let me tell you... i'm a sucker for a bonfire haha. i got to spend some time with some cool people, and lots that i dont know. it was a wheatland/scottsville/caledonia party. freaking awesome. so i got home from this at 3ish and was sleeping at 3:30ish and was up for my test at 7:30 . 4 hours is do-able.

i think i want to move by the end of the month, although..my mom has done a complete 180 in the past week. she misses me, and thats a first. she isnt even being a dick to me anymore. woah.

well im done...i dont know what to write about anymore.

its the freaking summer ... woot woot.

2005-07-06T23:45:44Z

my newest lists of (+)'s and (-)'s ...

plus-es //
+ well of course my first plus is that rick and linda allow emily and i to be friends again (because i love love love her.)
+ graduation.
+ graduation parties.
+ drive - in trips with em, jess and colin-cakes.
+ skelly road with the girls ... and aj.
+ moving out...?
+ chris came to visit.
+ skinny dipping everywhere.
+ camera phones.
----------------------------------------------->>
minus-es //
- road test in 5 days and i might fail ... again.
- mcc placement test tomorrow.
- im poor, again.
- chris left.
- nicole + tekisha + suzie @ graduation parties = not fun.
- work.

i want to quit smoking, i want to quit all bad habits. good luck to me.
eep. well im gonna go.

high school is over, lose the drama bitches.

2005-06-24T06:27:29Z

well i'm thinking that i should start updating this thing more...i mean it's been about 6 months or more since the last update.

graduation is in about seventeen hours and well...i'm a little nervous and reallly excited. high school graduate...college here i come. but to keep it short and simple, i'm glad it's finally over. i cannot wait to escape the drama and the bullshit that comes with high school girls. i hated high school for the most part, but i made the best of it.

and this is for all those who think i have a "problem"...fuck off. if i wanted you in my life, you would still be a friend of mine. but it sucks for you because your predictions of me are wrong. i do, in fact, have more than one friend...and i quite possibly have more friends than you do. but i am so glad you think so highly of me. nonetheless, i do hope the best for you in all that you do, and when we were friends i did value our friendship.

it's been a long week and i think that i need to catch up on some sleep that i have not gotten.

i guess i'll leave it at...
to the class of 2005: never forget the amazing times we all had. we made it.

sukadear @ 2004-06-18T12:01:00

2004-06-18T16:01:28Z

hi. i'm nicole. i'm the only one who ever fucking updates this.

sukadear @ 2004-05-04T20:24:00

2004-05-05T00:24:52Z

i am so sick of all this shit.

today was pretty shitty.

i think im sick, i got sick last night, i dont want to go to school tomorrow, and i hurt all over.

sukadear @ 2004-04-20T19:52:00

2004-04-20T23:52:39Z

i really need to update soon. but not right now.

sukadear @ 2004-04-17T00:01:00

2004-04-17T04:01:27Z

one more update and then bed time for me.

its getting a lot warmer here. it was almost 70 today, or maybe it was. i tend to stay inside when i watch the kids, its hard to admit im related to them sometimes. they sometimes act like they stopped learning new things at age 5. its supposed to be warm tomorrow too. my family has agreed to let me sleep in tomorrow, that makes me super happy. my mom is leaving in the morning to go to my grandmas, which means the two noisy kids will go too. and my sister had invited me to go shopping with her, but unfortunately i had to say no to that one too. i think im lacking a full week of sleep, maybe a little more.

no one is on tonight, most likely because its a friday night..and most people go out and do something on friday nights! well im a very boring person, who has now sucessfully bored herself. and now im going to bed because the more tired i get the more stupid i start to sound.

sukadear @ 2004-04-16T14:06:00

2004-04-16T18:06:27Z

so my vacation is almost over. that makes me kinda sad. i had one week to do what i wanted and this week i had to babysit. oh well, summer will not come fast enough for me this year. but, next year is my last year. i cannot believe that im finally going to be a senior. i really need to start worrying about college and stuff now. i need to get my license soon. and i need to take my acts and sats. i should stop waiting until the last minute to do everything.

i guess im screwed.

2004-04-15T17:54:22Z

i love that my brother and sister will listen to me and not my mom. i find that really funny. what does that say about her parenting skills? well anyways, i guess the only reason i can complain is that im the only one in this family to hear the word 'no'. its not fair but when i turn 18 she can no longer tell me no, but she can tell me to get the hell out of her house.

sukadear @ 2004-04-14T22:48:00

2004-04-15T02:48:55Z

theres not really a point in having a friends only journal when no one comments. im going back to letting everyone see it for a while, except for some entries. i dont know if anyone else will read it or not, but its worth a try.

sukadear @ 2004-04-14T16:17:00

2004-04-14T20:17:29Z

im going to find a new picture but i dont know what i want it to be of. i need ideas, im going to go find some♥

sukadear @ 2004-04-13T21:48:00

2004-04-14T01:48:30Z

i need to find a good picture to put in the empty space over there --->

but im glad i found some help in redesigning my journal. it was well over due for a change of some sort. i dont think im done, but its a start and the kids are leaving at 10 tomorrow so ill have some time to myself to do some more work on it.

sukadear @ 2004-02-11T20:06:00

2004-02-12T01:06:28Z

um, im going friends only now.
..leave one if you want.

[.....im leaving on a jet plane.....]

2004-02-09T01:49:32Z

so my aunt tina, john and robby are flying out tuesday. i might see if i can go with my daddy to pick them up. from the airport they're going to the hospital to visit my grandpa. i dont think they'll have enough room though, there will be 4 of them plus enough luggage to last a week in a car. maybe ill just wait until later this week to visit them.

christopher is probably home already, im sad that i only got to see him one of the three days, but then again i shouldnt have told anyone he was coming out. he'll probably be back in another 6 weeks. until then its phone and internet.

i want to go to california sometime this spring. ive been meaning to go for years, something just always comes up. but if i do ill probably have to pay for my ticket and honestly i cannot afford anything like that...unless aunt tina decides to pay for it. i would not mind spending spring break on the beaches of california. i dont know if it will happen this year, but it will.

sukadear @ 2004-02-07T00:21:00

2004-02-07T05:21:19Z

well chris came over tonight it was good to see him. i missed him a lot. his hair is different, its longer, but its cute. i think our hair length is about the same. i wish he'd just move back here.

we watched most of i am sam tonight. and we also helped brandon build some car. we got to cuddle while watching the movie. i miss that about him, he would always cuddle with me. but we had fun.

i think us history is going to be hard, pre-calc is easy though and desktop publishing is even easier. im glad i get the weekend to rest from gym...my whole body hurts so much everywhere.

i have to find something else to eat, these doritos rollitos things are really addictive and theyre the only thing that brandon eats. but they are really good.

hot showwwwer..mmmmm.